then I don't know what is

i see it again
again and again
when I see it
I am sad
really really sad
it reminds me that I am not
I mean I don't even close
I don't even close

well...

sometimes
life
is
just
so
fucking
unfair

am I special ??

you said everybody is special
and I am special too
thanks alot for saying that
but
in the other word
when everybody is spesial
then it's same like nobody is special
so who is special??
NOBODY

the greatness

to achieve greatness,

first you have to realize that you,

in fact, are not great at all.

because what?

because you are the sum of your mistakes.

key

no one will manufacture a lock without a key
similarly God won't give problems without solutions

die

I am afraid to imagine that,
when I ask to God to give me more time,
God will answer : I don't have any more time to give..
and
when earthquake happened few days ago,
I just realized that...
I am afraid to die.

another untitled

I have started to write since 4 years ago. I wrote everything but mostly about happiness.I found my old writing on my digital notebooks, read again, and these make me smile..
But now writing about happiness is very very difficult for me..
I don’t know why, may be I am changing, or the world is changing, or may be I just don’t get myself, I just don’t understand myself..
I think the most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you, but it is when you don’t understand yourself…
Yes, I don’t understand myself.
I guess I am adults. The question is, when did that happen, and how do I make it stop? Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. I get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever the damn hell I choose.
May be I am changing, may be everything is changing
Change; I don’t like it, I fear it, but I can't stop it from coming. I either adapt to change or I get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is everything…

I have bad habits. We all have bad habits. We all make mistakes. We all have parts of the past we are proud of, and incidents that we regret. We all want to compensate, we all seek justice. We don't, though, all go out of our way to achieve the impossible. Some of us settle for more modest aspirations. Some of us feel daunted by the pressures and problems of everyday life. I, though, don't want to be afraid. Nor am I willing to compromise. Nor should I. If I reach for the highest standard now, I may not attain it instantly, but I'll certainly start to come surprisingly close...